The Struggle Of Pregnancy.

06^th Jan 2011

Thursday // 12am // 1 year ago

Second Day (Jan 2nd 2011)

Today was very stressful at first, because I spent the night at my grandparents because me and my mother have gotten in an argument, and we both had said some pretty hurtful things to each other. But we had made up shortly after I arrived at my grandparents. I still have not told her, but I have started doing a lot of research on pregnancy and want to burn the information into mine and my boyfriend’s brain because I want to be ready for this. I want to make my child proud of who I am, etc. I know this is going to be sacrifices, responsibility, etc.. and I am so ready for it. In fact, I’m more excited than I was on the first day. Sheree had called me and James earlier on today and we were talking about it on a more serious note about the sacrifices, and responsibility etc that is going to come along with the situation at hand. He has already started going out and handing out job applications for the time being. I am starting to get a little bit stressed out because it is going to be hard.. I’m going to have to sacrifice sleep, a life (for a while), etc. I am thankful for my family, James’s family, and my friends for supporting me before this situation (I was an alcoholic and I abused drugs, but I had quit November 3rd), which makes me even more grateful that this has happened now because this way I don’t have to try and struggle to quit during the pregnancy, for I am already done with drugs and alcohol. The next step is quitting smoking, because I do not want anything to happen to this baby; the guilt I would feel would be unbareable… That’s all for today..